Lie With Me

Saturday, June 03, 2006

There used to be a period of time when I couldnt listen to that song without being reminded of you. Of how you sang to me while strumming the guitar, of how your head tilted to one side, of how your voice quivered sometimes. Of how those very same actions started grating on me, of how I started missing them after.

And it never fails to make my heart sink.

But today, I sat through it. Not unmoved, but neither did my heart sink. I was.. okay. Perhaps that little muscle on the left of my chest has finally realised, that the only way it can beat for someone else is to stop beating for you first.

I guess Ive been living in the shadows of us for way too long, whether consciously or not. But can you blame me? When what we had was so beautiful nothing has ever come close, not for the past.. 4 yrs? Hell I sound bloody stupid. I mean sure, there were others, but there was also you.

Today, I learn that time does indeed heal all wounds, and the scars are there just as mere reminders. Today, I remember the past and the emotions, but I don't feel them anymore.

It's been more than 6 mths since the Thing happened. It's also been more than 6 mths since we last spoke... I think I'm alright, coz this little heart beats for Me now.

♥